>>2452Not mad, nor exclaiming my life has some meaning you should worry about.
Just not miserable nor trying to make a virtue out of being lonely or addicted to opiates.
But it sounds like you had a deep seeded need to 'retaliate' against people who aren't like you. Kinda weird, and sounds a bit like the old adage of 'misery loves company.'
Really, feel kinda sorry for you. But your life is yours. Enjoy it, I guess.