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and I've always been such that I'm either unresponsive to stimuli, or my response is effectively random (only interacting with internal objects and states, has nothing to do with the source of the stimuli). Being spanked was bizarre, I laughed and laughed. It takes a lot to break me down and get me to engage with sensory reality directly, we're talking literal years of endless torture and abject anguish.
There have been drawbacks. I think this sort of system was designed for a particular range, but I was pushed way outside, again, due to prolonged inescapable and unyielding (but with the illusion of a degree of control) torture. So the whole thing collapses and actually begins to destroy you, being unable or uninclined to react to states and stimuli. My strengths were all turned against me. I'm convinced this place is actually some sort of hell. I don't like it here at all. It's too systematic, too unbelieveable, to not ascribe intent and design.