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I don't know, I've failed… more than 3 times by now, so maybe I'm not the best guy to give you advice.
But if I was going to do it again, I think that what I would do is save money and use nembutal, if I could find it. It seems humane and reliable, and is the veterinary standard. I tried partial suspension hanging more than once, but it took longer to pass out than people say, so I ended up just hurting my neck. Then I tried fentanyl, which I took by snorting it, but I passed fast out before I could snort all of it and ended up waking up with horrible withdrawals and pneumonia. Then, finally, I tried a gun but I got incredibly neurotic about the slim possibility that I could survive - living on after that with a huge whole in my head would be horrible.
Anyway, frankly, more importantly than any of that, what do you do? I've realized, since my own failures, that the psychological embrace of death, and desire for death, is sort of a valuable tool. Tell us about yourself, my friend. Maybe you can do something better than just dying in shame.